What kind of mom do I want to be?

For me this wonderful journey of motherhood is my life, my career. I get no raises, no promotions, no one puts my picture up in a frame with a gold plate underneath that reads "Employee of the Month", no pats on the back, no 'at a girls', not a corner office or an expense free business trip. The pay for my full time job comes in the form of words learned, manners used, smiling faces, sounds of giggles, cuddles and kisses. Though the 'pay' might not be much for someone looking to use their job to buy a home or save for retirement. I know with all that I am that I have a super important, God given, full time job in being a SAHM!!

Being a SAHM comes with no employee manual or company training guide. I have no 'boss', well except God, to answer to at the end of the day. I think this makes my job quite interesting. I am writing my own manual I am making up my own rules. Though I may not have a 'boss' to answer to. The things I write, the rules I make, and my choices will effect the lives of my kids for years to come. I feel like I have a choice to make I have to choose what kind of mom I want to be. I realize it is certinly not just stay at home moms that have to write the manual of motherhood. I get that! But I am a SAHM so that is the perspective I have to share.

I do not feel like there is a OSFA (one size fits all) way to parent or that there is one right way, but there are choices. Choices galore! I have to make a choice on what kind of mom I want to be. I have been blessed and truly inspired by this post! It made me realize and reevaluate what kind of mom I want to be and what I want my parenting to teach my son.

First and foremost I want to parent with God in for front. I want Carter to see that I am trying to mother as God had commanded. I want to be a mom that practices what she preaches. I want to be a mom who admits when she is wrong and is humble when she is right. I want to be a mom that praises my kids for their rights and teaches them through the wrongs. I want to discipline with firm but loving intentions. I want to be a mom that enjoys her kids. I want to experience new things with my kids and laugh with them. I want to play first and clean second. I want to be a mom who knows how to let go of the small things. I want to be a mom that my kids can count on.

Wanting to be that kind of mom to be is a daunting task. I am sure I will fail at more than a few on most days. But everyday I want to strive to be the mom I want to be! Because even though no 'boss' will be checking my stats, I know that what kind of mom I am, effects who Carter will be in the future!